“You’re too sensitive,” is what I was often told as a child growing up, or the most damning, “Stop being so sensitive!” So much exasperation went into those phrases I heard over and over as if I could one day wake up magically desensitized. Oh, wait that’s exactly what I did after eating enough sugar to fill a grain silo and putting enough drugs in my body to jump-start a corpse. Escaping or avoiding the judgment of others became a critical part of my behavior because I couldn’t stand the thought that I was disappointing someone and losing their love or respect. Mother Mary’s teaching today hits home in a big way for me.
Even at the height of my f**k-it days when I claimed I didn’t care what other people thought of me, I did, I did, I did. I learned to keep track of it all cautiously manipulating my way through my relationships so no one would ever dislike me. And when I came close to exploding from keeping it all inside I would leave the relationship, finding fault with a significant other, moving to another state and not keeping up with friends, always trying to outrun their judgments when they found out what a fraud I was.
I can’t express how much Mother saved my life, my sanity, and my heart. She taught me that my sensitivity was a gift if I was willing to learn how to use it in a healthy way. She said if I did I would thrive. Through the years I began to feel how allowing the judgments of others to dictate how I felt about myself was a form of handing them control of my reality. When I loved myself enough to take responsibility for myself the judgments of others didn’t hold as much sway. I’m still working on this. A close friend always reminds me that little by little I’m refining my healthy boundaries. The bonus to this growth is that I have less judgment towards others as well when before I was full of them. I’m happy to say I’m not bound up as tightly in that whole dynamic. Being willing to actually implement Mother’s teachings and follow the advice of trusted individuals has given me a life I could only dream of. I’m content and fulfilled most days and filled with gratitude for all that I get to experience the most important being the opportunity to serve others.
Thank you so much for watching. I hope you enjoy this video filled with Mother’s wisdom. It’s one more piece that will take you out of bondage and into freedom. Please leave a comment and let me know if giving and receiving judgment is shifting for you!
Love,
Danielle
Mother, and Danielle, thank you so much for this message. It has been so hard for me at times to stand up for myself and stop people from judging me. I know I’m not alone in this, but it something that we do that always hurts. I know I’ve done it to myself and others countless times. It makes me happy just to know that mother is here with me, guiding my discernment around judgement. When mother talked about being so much more than smart, I immediately thought about the class I am currently in (thank you mother for being with me) and that yes, I am so much more than just smart. I am a divine child of God.
Well said Johanna!! Thank you for watching and sharing.
I was listening to mother’s 2nd learn it live class earlier today and my legs suddenly jolted really fast. They came up in the air a little and shook. I’ve felt this before, but it’s the first time I’m posting about it. What could have caused this? Is it her moving energy within me?
Yes, Johanna, She is. That is the divine transmission of shakti or lifeforce. You may expect some inner shifts of shadow to light. Be super kind to yourself, shifts can be anything from euphoric to exhausting or a combination of both. Hugs to you.
Thank you Danielle. Definitely have been going through a lot of shifts! Personally and with family! I’m trusting Her completely!!
And thank you for letting me know about Shakti transmission, I didn’t know that’s what it was .?